Saturday, January 31, 2009


friday night ended better than i thought, and believe me when i say i was expecting much. i took my but to the foodstore, but not only that – just to make it a little more fun i dressed up and put some make-up on my pale face, yayay! so friday night was perfect, vici and emelie are truly wonderful. saturday started off with sunshine and vici is here now, again! we just had lunch, and now to the best part – gossip gossip gossip! ;-)

Friday, January 30, 2009


it sucks to be all alone. i’ve been cleaning my apartment. the whole thing. and no there is nothing left, so i’m bored and lonely. Vici and Emelie are coming over tonight, really much looking forward to that. ok i really really need to take my but to the foodstore and buy something to eat, the fridge is so, so empty. as empty as me you could say.

Thursday, January 29, 2009


today i’m just tired. over and out



my friends are the best, really. thank you for always trying to pick me up. it means the world to me, and you know it. at least i hope you do….

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

today i feel like this ; [nothing]


i’m in bed. it’s harder and harder to breath, the air isn’t making it better. i’m cold. my socks wont make me warmer, neither will my blanket that i’m under. my hair messed up, no make-up. got my pajama shorts on, and a long sleeved black shirt. i pull the sleeves over my hands, i sweep my cheeks dry. i wanna pull the blanket over my head, as in a black-out i want to disappear. today i feel like this ; like nothing.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

the one with all the drama

drama drama drama drama.

what’s going on in my head?

I’ve been studying geography for the past 5-6 hours, straight. me and a classmate just sat down and said to ourselves “study study study”. So we did. so what’s going on in my head? Geography.

A friend of mine is moving to paris tomorrow, have fun Emelie. I know she will, she’ll have a blast.



and a special thank you to my friend emelie w, just thank you!!! bunches.




and by the way, i shook it off…

Monday, January 26, 2009

shake it off


my friends are really truly the best in this world. no doubt. i thank god every single day for them, ‘cause they really are my world.

one calls just ‘cause she logged of messenger before she had the chance to say goodbye.
second sends a text ‘cause she is worried.
third sends the sweetest texts to keep me going.
fourth talks and gives me advice.

i don’t need to say more, the once not listed are as great too. you are the best guys. i like you so very much, you don’t even know.

so, i need to shake things off. i need to put myself in first hand. school is important, i know i know. but what about me, i need to live – i really really do. so what do you think, is friendship and me more important than school and hw? dreams vs reality?

monday glory?


i’m watching friends and eating chocolate. not good. not good. i should be studying for my big ass exam on wednesday. but no, i’m stuck with friends (‘cause i ate the few pieces of chocolate i had) and it won’t get my any wiser about geography.



and my mind is somewhere else


Sunday, January 25, 2009

not so sunny sunday

rain. fog. cold.



I’m so not going out today. but i’m about to clean my walk in closet and the house. it needs some freshin’ up.
and then, a long bubble bath and some chillin’ in front of the tv. happy sunday y’all, enjoy!

Saturday, January 24, 2009


i hope you like dancing in the rain...

Thursday, January 22, 2009

about life


i’m talking to kaitlin. i’m crying. i just don’t know what to do – life got me all messed up right now. i know i can’t have it all at once, but somedays i wish i could. i miss my life in america,’cause i love it and it was nearly perfect. but yet there is so much i love now, i love my life in sweden too. a combination isn’t possible, i know that. but i don’t know what to do. my life at home in america was close to perfect, and i miss it. i want it back. i need it.

this is hard. and maybe it’s just tonight, but tonight i wanna cry.



god will bless my broken road, i know that.

no pain no gain

i’m hurting…

Wednesday, January 21, 2009


There is hope, I give all my trust to President Obama. Let’schange the world we’re living in, ‘cause yes we can!

God Bless America!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

about time


24 hours a day just is not enough. last night i was stuck with them studies all night long. so i’ve been mighty tired today. but took time to meet my lil sis ‘cause she is just the most important thing in my life, because that is what family is. love her!

After meeting her i went home,sometimes i just miss living with her – she truly adds love and light to my life, glad she is sleeping over at my house thursday, if everything goes as planned.

so, still stuck with all these things to do, but it’s okay. i still love my life oh so very much. i’m just so glad to have all i have, and i thank God everyday for all His blessings. To all of you out there who believe in freedom, peace, human rights and love – may Gods love be with you, always.

yes we can

tough times, but there is hope. The world will change, if only we will change it. and yes we can!

Monday, January 19, 2009


another sleepless night, not ‘cause i can’t sleep - ‘cause i really could if only i had time. 24 hours a day just ain’t enough.

Sunday, January 18, 2009


A friend of mine is getting a little older today, happy birthday to you my love! So yesterday she hosted a dinner party, it started of with a candle light dinner, it continued with coconut/pineapple drinks, that turned into a tequila race, and a fast cab ride later to a club and then we ended the night were started – right there in the kitchen with gossip. of course a very very sweet someone gave me a ride to my house later, thank you for that. appreciate it!

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2. them sweet drinks

3. birthdaygirl!!


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Saturday, January 17, 2009



S’mores! I thought I’d show you how to make S’mores. All you need is two pieces of graham cracker, a marshmallow and a slab of chocolate. Oh and yes, a bonfire of course!

Let’s see how it goes, step by step.


1. the graham cracker


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2. roast the marshmallow, and put it on the cracker

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3. put your piece of chocolate (Hershey’s of course!)

on top of the roasted marshmallow

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4. and then the other graham cracker on the top

and you are done!

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So there you go, S’mores my friends!

Friday, January 16, 2009

not just a skater boy


This is thomas, he is the sweetest thing. i love when we hang out. often by the beach, because we love it so. but also at one of my fav restaurants in this world. it’s located close to home and it has the best food and the coolest design. i love love love it. these pictures mean so much to me, that’s why i had to post them here.i love his babyface in these, that is why i picked these older pics.

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Thursday, January 15, 2009


So, just for fun we had a “to do list” during Senior year. some cencur added when posted here. but here we go, this is why high school will forever have a part of my heart.



[x] Have or attend a slumber parrrttyyyy!!!

[x] Climb through one/or many windows, or have someone climb in through yours

x] Hang up while talking to someone w/o saying goodbye, real US style.

[x] "Accidentally bump” into someone in the hall so you both drop your books and papers [which will add up to a mess on the floor]

[x] Have wild shopping sprees på Abercrombie and Fitch

[x] Flirt with a H O T hunk who works at A&F

[x] Simly live through you cell

[x] get asked out on a date at least 10 times

x] have a guy pay for the whole date (o/c w/o asking)

[x] Join at least 5 teams

[x] Be a cheerleader, miniskirt and pompoms not optional

[x] Get detention

[x] "get help with your homework”/”Help someone with their homeworkl”  you know what i mean…

[x] Bitchwalk through across the hall

[x] Spill something in the lunch room

[x] Bless Starbucks with your presence at least 7 times/week

[x] Order the drink with the longest name, w/o saying it wrong

[x] Curl up in jammies with your girls in a big bed with Ben n Jerrys and talk boysboysboys

[x] Ghostride (Enough said!)

[x] Start every sentence with “ehh.. yess” during a class 

[x] Smash the car door/locker when you are mad, Marissa style

[x] Walk, or be walked to a class

[x] Drink out of red cups at parties

[x] Watch football

[x] Get into a drama…

[x] Through something at someone and then overreact and start crying

[x] Have, at least, two guys fighting over you

[x]Gossip in the bathroom

[x] Be all alone in the hall during the day

[x] Get picked up by your date at prom

[x] Make out with someone in the hall/in a parking lot/in a toilet/under the stands

[x] Chill out in the lunch room

[x] Flirt with someone by your locker

[/] Become Homecoming Queen/Prom Queen

[x] Buy the most nasty thing you can find in a store

[x] Make out with someone from the football team

[x] Eat nothing but bagels with creemcheese during a whole day

[x] Make a girl jealous on purpose, or just piss her off..

[x] Have a fat ride to prom

[x] Get a brainfreeze

[x] Jump in the tub/pool at a party

[x] Hug at least twenty different people in one day

[x] Cry/Hook up/flirt with someone at the beach

[x] Go to the mall (and all that goes with that!)

[x] Sneak out of the house at night!

[x] Make out with a guy when he drops you off at your house after your date

[x]Get a ride to school with your girlygirls or a cute guy

[x] Live up to a scen from High School Musical

[x] Walk through the hall with a guy behind you, and do NOT turn around to see if he is there

[x] Party it up at all the parties

[x] Get togheter in the kitchen, while standing around the table eating breakfast, OC style..

Wow, now when I look back at the list, i cant believe i did it all. haha. i miss high school!

Hope You all do not take this too seriously, as mentioned it was all for fun. Senior year was this far the best year of my life. thanks for all the memories, i will always love you guys!


Sorry Guys, school comes first.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009



Saw this today, and it makes me smile that some people have humour.. haha.


Tuesday, January 13, 2009






I forgot to tell you that I ordered this 
amazing&wonderful hoodie today,
makes me smile aldready…

so far i can only dream about it,among with
summer nights, light jeans shorts,
tanned legs and saltbreezy hair.

i don’t care what they say, i’m in love with you!



tons and tons of homework and work to do.a cup (or a hundred) of tea and some fruit will hopefully cheer me up and have me going for hours and hours more. wish me luck, cupcakes!


Monday, January 12, 2009

release me. dance. enjoy. soulmates

  As you have (probably) noticed, i love music. (one of) my fav club is soulmates, sweetness!

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Sunday, January 11, 2009

we are shadows, we are shadows


Today i’m listening to this: Shoreline

Saturday, January 10, 2009

life is good


i love these perfect days.

today this far: a good nights sleep. a walk in the sun. massage and pedicure.
now: magazines that daddy brought me
later: work work work

i love dad so very much

Friday, January 9, 2009

Martha, my dear.

This is my friend Martha,
she is gorgeous that sometimes she even makes me sick.

The fur. The red lips. The little black dress. The shoes. I love love love it!


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AND… that body!

Thursday, January 8, 2009


I’m back to reality… just so you know,
this blog will unfortunately not come in first hand the coming months…

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

music makes me lose control

turn the lights off. dance around. sing out loud. lose control.


Audiostalkers pt 3

God morning folks!
More to come about yesterday during the day.

Some of you have been asking where you can find some more of the best music there is right now and that would be by Audiostalkers. You can find some more tracks at and there will be more coming up during the year, and when it does I will let you know! Holla at ya!

one crazy day


this has been one crazy day, good crazy, fun crazy, crazy crazy and all that. I’ll let you know more tomorrow!

Tuesday, January 6, 2009


follow your heart and your dreams will come true, and in the end everything will be okay. and if they are not, it is not the end. cherish what you have, enjoy every moment. Keep in your mind what you have, not what you want. know the difference in what you need and what you want. it is possible to have it all, but not to have it all at once. enjoy this moment, and remember;

life is what happens when you are busy making other plans..




Monday, January 5, 2009

Let the good times roll


i heart 2009

let every single moment light up your life


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Sunday, January 4, 2009

Saturday, January 3, 2009

worth mentioning again


is the new black, the cream in your coffee,
the tunes in your iPod, the sugar in your candy,
the music in your head - this is UP AND COMING.

Any other DJ's?
Meet them at the dancefloor
and you're going down!

Audiostalkers, keep it in your mind,
your heart and soul, keep it in your
iPod and your good to roll!

my fav right now ;STILLETos


Remember, remember where you read it first

we keep chillin’ like ice-cream fillin’

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i know it’s you and her now


does she kiss like I used to kiss you?


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second is not the first loser

company. sun. food. new jeans.

Friday, January 2, 2009

in the sun


And being caught in between all I wish for and all I've seen,
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need

If I find my own way, how much will I find you?
I will find you. I picture you in the sun.

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Not really searching. Not really clear. but i picture you, picture you in the sun.

Oh, so ready


2 0 0 9 – come what may

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January 1st 2009
jammies all day. a walk in the park.
Real hope, about the future. blessings.
love and care. family and friends. god.

My first day of the year,
and this is just the beginning.


the rest is still unwritten…

And I’m on my knees, looking for the answer. Are we human? Or are we dancer?

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Thursday, January 1, 2009