Sunday, July 12, 2009


Bilderna från Hultan är på G, stay tuned!

Saturday, June 6, 2009


i want it to rain, i want it to rain all night.

i wanna hear the raindrops rattle against the windowpane.

and when i look up from under my blanket i wanna see the raindrops fall.

because if i go outside, i know that tears won't show in the pouring rain.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

can you do it again, please.

just grab my hand again, and again, and again..
you reached for my hand but you touched my heart.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Monday, April 27, 2009

what is love?

[this is the part where the answer would fit, if only i had one]

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

april fools

well no, i’ve not made my mind up about moving.


today was a great day. student hats arrived. new shoes. smoothie in the sun.
a walk in the sun. great. great. great!!

saturday is soon to be here, yay!

us and a, baby

so, i’ve made my mind up. moving back to the states in august.
feels good to have finally come down to what i want to do.
college applications filled out, and SAT’s to be taken soon.

what a beautiful day!

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

hey mr gorgeous

a friend of mine got a haircut, and all i can say is ; hey mr gorgeous!



423 - Kopia

so he told me,

“hey you, i’m really sorry that it didn’t work out between us. as i said, i don’t really know what to say, and that feels stupid”


hey you, i am too.

first aid kit

spotify it…

high on e

high on emelie that is. she is the sweetest thing. just called me today and that brighten my day up totally.
best cure for fever and sickness is friends (as in real friends, not as seen on tv), spotify and fruit salad.

now back to the books. making me through is keeping my eyes on the price.


it hit me hard

i had dream this night, i woke up with that sweet feeling in my tummie that wasn’t an ache. but oh little did i know that it was because of the dream.


i had a dream i was in love, and not only that. he loved me back. we were in love.
but oh well, dreams are words about freedom. and i wish he had the chance to read them…

Monday, March 30, 2009

life is life

so, this is it. senior year.

my head hurts. my heart hurts. my body aches. this is it, senior year.

watched the last episode of friends today, how sad is that? no more new episodes of friends, ever. feels so weird, i miss them 6 friends already. well, i can check that off my to do list now, all episodes seen at least once. check.

i have so much to do, i know i shouldn’t complain. i know i’ll make it through. not many days to go now, not many days. well still months, but not many.

i’m longing for the summer, and soon it will be here. and i will be free. f r e e.

the thing i’m longing for the most right now though is saturday,
because me and my babygirl are off to thailand. amen.


well, life is life. and no besides all this bull, i love it. i. love. it.

Monday, March 16, 2009


mr x gets me through. a quick pep-talk and i’m back in business babes.




pep-talk needed. badly.


there is so much to do, and there is so much i want to do. somehow the energy i have right now is enough to do none.


not even enough to write more. another day. another day…

Saturday, March 14, 2009


the summer is coming up, and that equals festivals. so to get us all started at our festival we’re having a special weekened this week. partied it up vladnik style yesterday, a few hours of sleep and now meetings all weekend long. sweetums

Thursday, March 12, 2009


sittin’ here in my room, the magic by the shins are coming out of my speakers – i’m in love with it.

got myself all confused again, but what’s is new?  all confused, yet not only bad though, not only bad...
what to do? it’s not that i don’t know what to do – it’s how to find the time to do it all.
but  yet i know, i won’t have time to do it all, but i just can’t seem to pick anything out to actually do.

now though, is always now. and right now all i have to put my energy down to is school. i hate so say that
nothing is more important now. school school school. printed in my head, making me sleepless at nights.
what else is there? hopefully it will all be worth it in the end. not the end, but when my real life begins.

sweet home america, i need to go back. i was sitting by my computer, as always, but i couldn’t stop
staring at my ol’ high schools website. i was just sitting there, staring. it was all stop and stare. reminds
me off prom,’stop and stare, i think i’m moving but i go nowhere’. that’s how it feels right now.
senior year in high school was all good, i was loving every day and i cried my heart out when we graduated.

but it’s over now. my home is not in the states now, it’s right here and right now. some days i feel like a robot,
i wake up, i get dresssed, i go to school, i come home, i do my homework, i’m pumped out, i go to bed.
i must be the worst friend ever. ever. my friends are the best, but somehow i feel like i’m not good enough back.
they deserve the best, truly, honestly and really, really the best.

today i watched life of ryan, a show on mtv of ryan scheklers life – and i wanted to cry. cry my eyes out and
my broken heart away. but i couldn’t, i didn’t wanna seem like the girl who cries to life of ryan. it reminded me
though, of the good life. the real life.

i hate being all negative, i really really do.  and actually i’m not. i’m just tired, of always being sick and tired.
but june 5th school will be over, and after that – come what may.

i need love, but this life is too short to live it just for you. i’m stupid, stupid enough to let him go,
so i don’t deserve him. i don’t wanna hear another “one day you’ll find someone”, well i don’t want to
do it when im 40. i want it now. i wanna be crazy in love, so in love i’ll do anything for him. crazy in love,
like i’ve lost my mind. us against the world. no boundaries. like i’d love him forever. but there is none.

what else is there? all that there is not.
oh, by the way,  is it the laugh that makes you live longer, or is it the non-presence of the pain when you’re laughing?

friends, wherever you are – there is sunshine, i don’t need to shine. i know i’ve got you babes.

one republic – stop and stare

Wednesday, March 11, 2009


back to reality.

love to my sunshine emelie who brightens up my days and melts the snowstorm in my world.

now back to studies and work. life is good though – real good.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009


i’m back. saving my day today, well as everyother day, is Emelie. thank you for being you. can’t wait for 7 pm to get here….

Wednesday, February 25, 2009


wow, life here is all good. don't be surprised if i don't ever come back!
just wanted you to know that everything is perfect.

miss you guys! love from aonang

Sunday, February 22, 2009

bye bye winter wonderland!

about to hit the airport then off to thailand! ya yay!


i’m going to miss you guys, but i’ll be back in a few weeks.



love /

Saturday, February 21, 2009

walking on sunshine

what a lovely day. shopping. blueberry pie. friends. sunshine. packing. work.


i love this.

Friday, February 20, 2009

and i must be the happiest camper in the world

i'm about to flip out, going on a two week vacation starting sunday. yay baby!!
my daddy is really, truly the best. love love love love him

Thursday, February 19, 2009


a lot has been going on this week, as y’all have prolly understood due to the how bad i’ve been updating this week. i don’t really know where to start, but why not from friday? from friday it is.

Started the weekend off with dinner at Emelie’s and shooting for VICE (click on link to view pictures), had hella fun and the weekend started off perfectly, even though it was friday 13th. as said i worked saturday, so enough about that.

sunday i met my love Maria up for some good catch up, haven’t seen her in ages – for real. she visited for a few days, so i wanted to spend as much time as possible with her. so we met up sunday night for a classic date, dinner and movie that is. it was super sweet to catch up with her since it has been ages since we last met. i had a baked tater for dinner and she just had to enjoy to famous rasberry pie. haha. after that we hit the movie theatre, popcorn and coke at the movies – not optional – so of course we had to get that first. we laughed our behinds off watching the movie and the perfectness of life in it snapped us in the faces again.

monday morning was pretty sweet, i have to say, a week with bunches to look forward to and i was good to go. after school i hit the new vice office, and that my friends was sweetness caught in one place. a quick visit by my house to drop some things off, and then off to fix my back. enough about that, it wasn’t about as fun as it sounded. then again i met M and her daddy up for dinner, we had a wonderful relaxed brittish pub dinner. but to not make it too brittish we had to spend the whole dinner talking about america, hah, britain in all is honour – but there ain’t nothing like the states… after dinner we decided to visit the movies again, Valkyrie was up this time and of course i cried, but the movie itself was really really good though.

tuesday was a long day in school, then off to get my nails done. because whenever my nails are well manicured i just feel better, then i met vici up to help her with her school stuf and then emelie joined us. by the way, i had freshly squeezed orange juice – and just about how good is that? i love it. then me and emelie went back to my house to cook some supper, well she did the cooking and i did the salad. anyhow, it was really good! another late night and i fell asleep as a child as soon as i closed my eyes.

yesterday was filled to the top with meetings and another stuf to fix. met Yessica up to guide her to a store to buy a jacket she was longing for, it looked great on her and i hope she’ll be some how alone with having it this spring. that girl always dresses like a million dollars, i love it! then a meeting about prom ‘09, it’s going to be fab fab fab fab!! another late night, that is some how the theme for this week!

today i spent all day in school, then work and now i’m stuck here with a million things to do! a million. i’m glad i got the shirt i ordered today though, if possible it’s even sweater (haha) IRL. i bet y’all didn’t get my joke there, oh well oh well..

i’m hella tired of all the shit i have to do right now, just hoping the weekend will bring some brightness. let’s hope so. oh, i almost forgot – i’m off ALL next week – i just love love love it! suddenly, my day turned to a little brighter direction…

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

busy bee

again and again and again.. haha, too tired.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009


having a little dinner at my house, i’ll let you know more later.

Monday, February 16, 2009


what is love…?

Sunday, February 15, 2009

these are my confessions

as i mentioned earlier i wasn’t about to shop as much as i used to, but then the other day i just had to get this and get that..
and oh well let’s make some good out of what i did by showing you… fair enough?!

These awesome sneakers,
metallic and i can’t really tell if they’re silver or gold.

515516 521

This denim shirt,
that i’m thinking i’ll change to a west
or i’ll just wear it as shown on the right hand side and
not as originally as shown on the left side.
perfectly a little longer that normally and wrangler.



the most beautiful sweater,
a little shorter model, double buttoned,
oversize cap. pure perfection to me.

528 529 dubble

The coolest jacket ever,
double zip, soft fabric,
rolled up sleeves, box shaped,

540537 538 541

one can not go with out pants,
so grey ones and leggins.


that was it, do i dare show you the rest of the shoes…?


Valentines Day is over, well for this year of course. Mine was good, and it might come as a chock for most people since i’m single.
why is it all that black and white with a lot of things, i know i can be colorful. why are the alternatives for people on valentines only two?
First one, stay home with the love of your life all day and celebrate this day – or the second, go out and get drunk because you’re single and depressed.
why is that? that’s wrong. there should be more to Valentines Day than just couples. let’s take Finland for example, Valentines Day is called “the Friends day” – how sweet is that? A day for friendship and that kind of love, the love for them people in your life who really deserves it.

My Valentines was not all go out and get drunk, actually it wasn’t like that at all. i’ll put it down step by step so y’all can see how
it went down for me this year.. and then please tell me if it was too depresseive and i’m too blue-eyed to see it.

Started off with sleeping in, then daddy woke me up with flowers and the sweetest Valentines card and not only that,
but also a two week trip somewhere. well of course if we find that trip somewhere. after that he left and when i finally
made my way to the kitchen there was fresh bread and croissants. that and some freshly squeesed juice and my breakfast
was fully over completed. that is what i called a good start! after that i laid down on the couch to fix the pictures from yesterday,
more about that later. when that was done and a shower was taken i was good to go to work. i just got off, so the night was spent there.
got a few hours to spear before i got off, so i watched a movie and a half. then daddy came to pick me up and now we’re watching movies
and chillin’ out. pretty much a perfect day to me. but of course, Valentines Day last year wasn’t too bad either…

Yesterday i got the sweetest thing! Emelie joined me to Fabriken to shoot for VICE. before that she invited me to her place for some
wining and dining, and she gave me a heart shaped box with the best chocolate. how sweet is that?! i was so glad y’all don’t even know,
she really is the sweetest thing. really, really made my day. my friends are so amazing, simply the best.

yea, so ADDICTS/ESS had a party going on last night. we went there to shoot and got some sweet pictures of beautiful people.
christian dinamarca was doing it as always, and the visuals by rasmus were sweet. fun that pablo was there too, haven’t seen him for a while.

so me and emelie were doing it last night, and we got bitten in the ass by the cold on our way home. freezing was spelled out in the night.

so from valentines to singles, and blacks to white,
i’ll let y’all go so i say goodnight.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Friday, February 13, 2009

I was made for times like these

wow, i love these days. i really, really do. i love my life!!
i was made for times like these. it's friday the 13th,
but i have to say, so far so good.

the day well spent already, and it's only 7 o'clock.
started off with some good ol' school for a few hours,
then a quick trip to the doctors. going there on friday the 13th
wasn't as bad as i thought. hah!

then i met Josie upp for a some shopping, not that i need it,
but i just had to get this and then get that. then i met my
love up for some lunch, a good salad later i was good to go.
left her at the sub to make my way home.. well of course
on the way home i stopped at some shops. bad me. not ok.

now i'm at sarah's, i just helped her out with her spray tan -
let's see how that goes. so far she looks gorgeous! gotta do
some extra for your love at valentine's and oh she's doing it.

now off to see miami ink, i love that show and i never get enough!

don't forget ESS/ADDICTS @ FABRIKEN tonight,
i'll be there shooting for VICE - so make sure to put
your best dancing shoes on, bring a smile and meet new friends.
it's horror night, so dress out. see you there, right?!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

honestly, are people serious?!

wow, people are such haters. really needed to say that out loud. i just wonder, why? why be hatin’ on everything?!

people are so mean, they really don’t care at all. and it’s not about honesty, to speak your mind when someone asks you,
they’re just pure evil for no reason at all. why is that? why would anyone want to hurt another? it makes me sad.

people who push others down must have some kind of issues themselves, no one perfectly fine with their life would
do such thing. i’m really really upset. why are bloggers such attention whores? for real. for what y’alls life are worth,
just stop. stop hurting people, the worst thing is the hurting is not done by mistake – it’s done to hurt, to get attention.

why is that? why call someone fat and complain about your own two pound overweight, to then the other day
be soooooo upset about young boys and girls having eating dissorders and wanting to be skinny and try to be the
as tiny as they can. that is not a good role model, and even if you’re not trying to be one – you are.

and i’m not saying one should never complain about weight or anything like that, because it truly is hard to get
satisfied with yourself. so okay if you one day give away diet tips and then the other tell people to love themselves
for who they are, fine. that’s ok. but don’t go pushing others down, they don’t need your bull.

so, from now on i just wish people could care more about themselves and less about others.
and remember, no one is perfect – and when it comes down to it,
it’s hard to look innocent when you got cookie crumbs all over your face

happy thursday

today i went shopping with daddy. a pair of shoes and two jackets richer he gave me a ride home.
and again i’m too tired to write, tomorrow tomorrow there’s always tomorrow..

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

wednesdays for the win

i love wednesdays! it’s past the three first days of the week, you can go partying, and you know there is only two more days ‘til the weekend. what is there not to love? only had one class today, so my day in school wasn’t too painful. i dropped by the VICE office to get a camera, and then i went home to watch friends and take a nap. now it’s time for another nap, then heading out - ‘cause it’s Petras birthday and it WILL be celebrated! happy birthday girl!!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009


hah, thought i would be funny there but i don’t think i was, so anyways.. i’m super excited, doing a lil photo thingy this week that includes VICE, how exciting is that? well at least i’m excited – so that makes one. still a little sick, so i’m going to rest some more.


check it out ;

Monday, February 9, 2009


missing mom today, really bad. so to cheer myself up i’ll show you some pics of the new sneakers i bought.


oh, and a special lil hello to Ivar @ VICE, ‘cause if you can see this my e-mail went through,
and also of course to Rob because he bought me gum from the states. Isn’t it funny how much gum can do..?

Sunday, February 8, 2009

new york new york

it’s easy to dream yourself away, so therefor i do it as often as i can! since i didn’t dance the night away yesterday, i stayed home to watch a friends marathon. it reminded me of new york, and good ol’ america. i really want to go back home to the states, or at least to new york. i need some vacation and relaxing, and i need to travel somewhere far where homework isn’t anywhere close to be seen. i want to go to new york ‘cause it’s the city of many dreams, i want to remember what i want in life and how to get there. i want too see my hopes and dreams, because right now my hopes and dreams are too small for this town so i need to go somewhere else and give them a shot. but the problem is i don’t have money to go, since i go to school full time and only work a little extra when i have some hours to spear it doesn’t give me a lot to travel for. the lucky girl that i am, i found a blog where you can win a trip to NY so therefor i’m in it now!

my motivation would simply be : to find some inspiration to keep on going this last semester in “gymnasium”, and to have something glad in these days. since tomorrow (the 9th) is the day that my wonderful mother passed away i want to keep my mind off that, and try to have something nice to look forward. so, i just think i’m worth a trip there, a trip that i can’t afford.


if you want to check the post out!

Saturday, February 7, 2009

emotions and dancing shoes

so, since we’ve been talking emotions for a while we’ll just stay on that track.

i really wanted to dance the night away tonight, put on my dancing shoes.
put on a pair of trashed leggin’s. a oversize shirt. my hair all over the place.
i wanted to re-live some memories, just dream myself away. but i wont.

’cause the one i wanted to go with doesn’t want to,
honestly – it sucks. ‘cause i worked my but off to fix it, so this blows.
so i really wanted to dance the night away, but i won’t.

for me, friendship works both ways.
but tonight working one way, we’re not dancing the night away.

i know you’ll see this, so have a look - then close your eyes,
i know you’ll feel it, we could have felt it twice…

P7305773 - Kopia

them ups and downs

i don’t really  know what is going on, not with my feelings but   with my body. Thursday after i wrote the really tiny note in the blog i thought i would just lay down for a while, so i did. well i take naps every now and then, so now to the weird part – all of a sudden my phone rang, so when i was about to lean to get it i couldn’t move. my body was to weak to move, how scary is that? i didn’t really know what to do, i kinda paniced but after a while i reached it. it was just so scary, as i was in a battle with myself to sit up i was about to pass out. i have no clue what that was. my whole body was akeing and i could barely sleep. i somehow managed to crawl to my bed and then try to sleep, the night was hard but i slept for a few hours in the morning. so no school for me yesterday, but after resting all day yesterday, ‘cause i was too scared to try to get up i felt a little better later on. so emelie called me last night and asked if i wanted to hit some clubs? and oh yes i sure did. so after i wild night out i ended up at my flat around 5-6 am. what a night i say. thanks to emelie, again, for bringing light into my life! thank you a million!


oh, and like y’all have noticed the echoe of pictures is almost frightening, but my camera is broke. it sucks, i miss it badly! maybe i can snap a picture of my outfit today or something, just to give you something to stare at. i’ll holla at y’all later!

Friday, February 6, 2009


the most scary thing happened yesterday, i was so weak i could not even sit up. i don’t know what that was. well i feel a lil better today so i hope i’ll be alright in a few days. but since its friday i wish i could be fine in only a few hours, we’ll see about that…

Thursday, February 5, 2009


i’m about to take a nap, too tired to write more. i’ll holla at ya later

Wednesday, February 4, 2009


there is so much i want to say right now, or actually - let me correct myself and say write. because there is really bunches and bunches in my lil' head that i just want to write out. but how do you spell feelings out? it's really not the easiest. feelings as a matter of fact are hard to express whichever way you chose to do it in. they're hard to put down in letters and form words, they're hard to show in emotions, they are hard to just spit out - but i think that with all these things, and the way you try so hard to show them, the specialness of them just forms something so people will know - whetever you want it or not, your friends will know how you feel. but that is the greatness of friends and friendship, without words you can say all you want to say. and that is amazing.

well, let me try to spell this out later on - right now i'm just overwhelmed again.

breakfast at tiffanys

i love to sleep in, to just stay in bed as long as you want to. and that is exactly what i did today.

so now, what do you say about breakfast at tiffany’s? i say i’m going to make myself a wonderful smoothie!
just here in the kitchen though, i love our kitchen by the way. it makes it even better!


have a nice day cupcakes, i know i will!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

a long day

i’m about to leave the house in a few minutes, and i’ll be back late. first of to school, then work ‘til late. but i’ll survive!

oh, and my phone is not alright, so if i haven’t answered your texts/calls, don’t worry about it, i will as soon as i can!

Monday, February 2, 2009

cheap monday

i was mighty tired today since i chose to watch friends all night – but it was totally worth it. today was great, actually – so we’re all good. had lunch with a friend, and then i went and got my nails fixed upp, and rounded that off with a thirty minute massage! now it’s time to sleep, ‘cause i don’t wanna be too tired tomorrow…


a special lil’ love to Anna, hope you get better soon Boo!

super bowl sunday, baby!

it’s superbowl sunday, so that has to be celebrated! right? Not that i’m going to watch the whole game or so, but anyways. to make my sunday perfect without super bowl i spent it at emelies. we had tea and talked, then we watched friends and just hung out. erik came later on, so we all went to the store and bought some salmon for dinner – then emelie made THE best salmon dinner with salad ever, it was truly delish. and to round it off she baked cookies, what a lady! a truly wonderful friend, because she also borrowed me season 7-10 of friends. i love love love it. so what could be more perfect, than to spend time with emelie? she is one of my most wonderful friends, and i appreciate our friendship oh so very much. now ; super bowl or sleep? sleep it is.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

them ups and downs

y’all have been wondering what’s going on in my life? well all i can say is ; a lot. that’s why my blog has been showing some ups and downs. but when it comes down to it, i’m as happy as one could be. my friends are amazing, my dad is the best. school is going well, and i have a job. that is why i want you all to know, once and for all ; yes i’m happy, i love my life.

so if them downs come showing again, let’s push ‘em away, let’s push ‘em away…

Saturday, January 31, 2009


friday night ended better than i thought, and believe me when i say i was expecting much. i took my but to the foodstore, but not only that – just to make it a little more fun i dressed up and put some make-up on my pale face, yayay! so friday night was perfect, vici and emelie are truly wonderful. saturday started off with sunshine and vici is here now, again! we just had lunch, and now to the best part – gossip gossip gossip! ;-)

Friday, January 30, 2009


it sucks to be all alone. i’ve been cleaning my apartment. the whole thing. and no there is nothing left, so i’m bored and lonely. Vici and Emelie are coming over tonight, really much looking forward to that. ok i really really need to take my but to the foodstore and buy something to eat, the fridge is so, so empty. as empty as me you could say.

Thursday, January 29, 2009


today i’m just tired. over and out



my friends are the best, really. thank you for always trying to pick me up. it means the world to me, and you know it. at least i hope you do….

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

today i feel like this ; [nothing]


i’m in bed. it’s harder and harder to breath, the air isn’t making it better. i’m cold. my socks wont make me warmer, neither will my blanket that i’m under. my hair messed up, no make-up. got my pajama shorts on, and a long sleeved black shirt. i pull the sleeves over my hands, i sweep my cheeks dry. i wanna pull the blanket over my head, as in a black-out i want to disappear. today i feel like this ; like nothing.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

the one with all the drama

drama drama drama drama.

what’s going on in my head?

I’ve been studying geography for the past 5-6 hours, straight. me and a classmate just sat down and said to ourselves “study study study”. So we did. so what’s going on in my head? Geography.

A friend of mine is moving to paris tomorrow, have fun Emelie. I know she will, she’ll have a blast.



and a special thank you to my friend emelie w, just thank you!!! bunches.




and by the way, i shook it off…

Monday, January 26, 2009

shake it off


my friends are really truly the best in this world. no doubt. i thank god every single day for them, ‘cause they really are my world.

one calls just ‘cause she logged of messenger before she had the chance to say goodbye.
second sends a text ‘cause she is worried.
third sends the sweetest texts to keep me going.
fourth talks and gives me advice.

i don’t need to say more, the once not listed are as great too. you are the best guys. i like you so very much, you don’t even know.

so, i need to shake things off. i need to put myself in first hand. school is important, i know i know. but what about me, i need to live – i really really do. so what do you think, is friendship and me more important than school and hw? dreams vs reality?

monday glory?


i’m watching friends and eating chocolate. not good. not good. i should be studying for my big ass exam on wednesday. but no, i’m stuck with friends (‘cause i ate the few pieces of chocolate i had) and it won’t get my any wiser about geography.



and my mind is somewhere else


Sunday, January 25, 2009

not so sunny sunday

rain. fog. cold.



I’m so not going out today. but i’m about to clean my walk in closet and the house. it needs some freshin’ up.
and then, a long bubble bath and some chillin’ in front of the tv. happy sunday y’all, enjoy!

Saturday, January 24, 2009


i hope you like dancing in the rain...

Thursday, January 22, 2009

about life


i’m talking to kaitlin. i’m crying. i just don’t know what to do – life got me all messed up right now. i know i can’t have it all at once, but somedays i wish i could. i miss my life in america,’cause i love it and it was nearly perfect. but yet there is so much i love now, i love my life in sweden too. a combination isn’t possible, i know that. but i don’t know what to do. my life at home in america was close to perfect, and i miss it. i want it back. i need it.

this is hard. and maybe it’s just tonight, but tonight i wanna cry.



god will bless my broken road, i know that.

no pain no gain

i’m hurting…

Wednesday, January 21, 2009


There is hope, I give all my trust to President Obama. Let’schange the world we’re living in, ‘cause yes we can!

God Bless America!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

about time


24 hours a day just is not enough. last night i was stuck with them studies all night long. so i’ve been mighty tired today. but took time to meet my lil sis ‘cause she is just the most important thing in my life, because that is what family is. love her!

After meeting her i went home,sometimes i just miss living with her – she truly adds love and light to my life, glad she is sleeping over at my house thursday, if everything goes as planned.

so, still stuck with all these things to do, but it’s okay. i still love my life oh so very much. i’m just so glad to have all i have, and i thank God everyday for all His blessings. To all of you out there who believe in freedom, peace, human rights and love – may Gods love be with you, always.

yes we can

tough times, but there is hope. The world will change, if only we will change it. and yes we can!

Monday, January 19, 2009


another sleepless night, not ‘cause i can’t sleep - ‘cause i really could if only i had time. 24 hours a day just ain’t enough.

Sunday, January 18, 2009


A friend of mine is getting a little older today, happy birthday to you my love! So yesterday she hosted a dinner party, it started of with a candle light dinner, it continued with coconut/pineapple drinks, that turned into a tequila race, and a fast cab ride later to a club and then we ended the night were started – right there in the kitchen with gossip. of course a very very sweet someone gave me a ride to my house later, thank you for that. appreciate it!

1. easy takeoff

2. them sweet drinks

3. birthdaygirl!!


023  028   015

Saturday, January 17, 2009



S’mores! I thought I’d show you how to make S’mores. All you need is two pieces of graham cracker, a marshmallow and a slab of chocolate. Oh and yes, a bonfire of course!

Let’s see how it goes, step by step.


1. the graham cracker


Tennessee pt 3 008 

2. roast the marshmallow, and put it on the cracker

Tennessee pt 3 009

3. put your piece of chocolate (Hershey’s of course!)

on top of the roasted marshmallow

Tennessee pt 3 011

4. and then the other graham cracker on the top

and you are done!

   Tennessee pt 3 012

So there you go, S’mores my friends!

Friday, January 16, 2009

not just a skater boy


This is thomas, he is the sweetest thing. i love when we hang out. often by the beach, because we love it so. but also at one of my fav restaurants in this world. it’s located close to home and it has the best food and the coolest design. i love love love it. these pictures mean so much to me, that’s why i had to post them here.i love his babyface in these, that is why i picked these older pics.

Myrtle Beach 106Myrtle Beach 087Myrtle Beach 085  Myrtle Beach 094

Thursday, January 15, 2009


So, just for fun we had a “to do list” during Senior year. some cencur added when posted here. but here we go, this is why high school will forever have a part of my heart.



[x] Have or attend a slumber parrrttyyyy!!!

[x] Climb through one/or many windows, or have someone climb in through yours

x] Hang up while talking to someone w/o saying goodbye, real US style.

[x] "Accidentally bump” into someone in the hall so you both drop your books and papers [which will add up to a mess on the floor]

[x] Have wild shopping sprees på Abercrombie and Fitch

[x] Flirt with a H O T hunk who works at A&F

[x] Simly live through you cell

[x] get asked out on a date at least 10 times

x] have a guy pay for the whole date (o/c w/o asking)

[x] Join at least 5 teams

[x] Be a cheerleader, miniskirt and pompoms not optional

[x] Get detention

[x] "get help with your homework”/”Help someone with their homeworkl”  you know what i mean…

[x] Bitchwalk through across the hall

[x] Spill something in the lunch room

[x] Bless Starbucks with your presence at least 7 times/week

[x] Order the drink with the longest name, w/o saying it wrong

[x] Curl up in jammies with your girls in a big bed with Ben n Jerrys and talk boysboysboys

[x] Ghostride (Enough said!)

[x] Start every sentence with “ehh.. yess” during a class 

[x] Smash the car door/locker when you are mad, Marissa style

[x] Walk, or be walked to a class

[x] Drink out of red cups at parties

[x] Watch football

[x] Get into a drama…

[x] Through something at someone and then overreact and start crying

[x] Have, at least, two guys fighting over you

[x]Gossip in the bathroom

[x] Be all alone in the hall during the day

[x] Get picked up by your date at prom

[x] Make out with someone in the hall/in a parking lot/in a toilet/under the stands

[x] Chill out in the lunch room

[x] Flirt with someone by your locker

[/] Become Homecoming Queen/Prom Queen

[x] Buy the most nasty thing you can find in a store

[x] Make out with someone from the football team

[x] Eat nothing but bagels with creemcheese during a whole day

[x] Make a girl jealous on purpose, or just piss her off..

[x] Have a fat ride to prom

[x] Get a brainfreeze

[x] Jump in the tub/pool at a party

[x] Hug at least twenty different people in one day

[x] Cry/Hook up/flirt with someone at the beach

[x] Go to the mall (and all that goes with that!)

[x] Sneak out of the house at night!

[x] Make out with a guy when he drops you off at your house after your date

[x]Get a ride to school with your girlygirls or a cute guy

[x] Live up to a scen from High School Musical

[x] Walk through the hall with a guy behind you, and do NOT turn around to see if he is there

[x] Party it up at all the parties

[x] Get togheter in the kitchen, while standing around the table eating breakfast, OC style..

Wow, now when I look back at the list, i cant believe i did it all. haha. i miss high school!

Hope You all do not take this too seriously, as mentioned it was all for fun. Senior year was this far the best year of my life. thanks for all the memories, i will always love you guys!


Sorry Guys, school comes first.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009



Saw this today, and it makes me smile that some people have humour.. haha.


Tuesday, January 13, 2009






I forgot to tell you that I ordered this 
amazing&wonderful hoodie today,
makes me smile aldready…

so far i can only dream about it,among with
summer nights, light jeans shorts,
tanned legs and saltbreezy hair.

i don’t care what they say, i’m in love with you!



tons and tons of homework and work to do.a cup (or a hundred) of tea and some fruit will hopefully cheer me up and have me going for hours and hours more. wish me luck, cupcakes!


Monday, January 12, 2009

release me. dance. enjoy. soulmates

  As you have (probably) noticed, i love music. (one of) my fav club is soulmates, sweetness!

003 - Kopia 002 - Kopia

Sunday, January 11, 2009

we are shadows, we are shadows


Today i’m listening to this: Shoreline

Saturday, January 10, 2009

life is good


i love these perfect days.

today this far: a good nights sleep. a walk in the sun. massage and pedicure.
now: magazines that daddy brought me
later: work work work

i love dad so very much

Friday, January 9, 2009

Martha, my dear.

This is my friend Martha,
she is gorgeous that sometimes she even makes me sick.

The fur. The red lips. The little black dress. The shoes. I love love love it!


 PC188072 PC188077PC188075 

AND… that body!

Thursday, January 8, 2009


I’m back to reality… just so you know,
this blog will unfortunately not come in first hand the coming months…

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

music makes me lose control

turn the lights off. dance around. sing out loud. lose control.


Audiostalkers pt 3

God morning folks!
More to come about yesterday during the day.

Some of you have been asking where you can find some more of the best music there is right now and that would be by Audiostalkers. You can find some more tracks at and there will be more coming up during the year, and when it does I will let you know! Holla at ya!

one crazy day


this has been one crazy day, good crazy, fun crazy, crazy crazy and all that. I’ll let you know more tomorrow!

Tuesday, January 6, 2009


follow your heart and your dreams will come true, and in the end everything will be okay. and if they are not, it is not the end. cherish what you have, enjoy every moment. Keep in your mind what you have, not what you want. know the difference in what you need and what you want. it is possible to have it all, but not to have it all at once. enjoy this moment, and remember;

life is what happens when you are busy making other plans..




Monday, January 5, 2009

Let the good times roll


i heart 2009

let every single moment light up your life


P1058430 P1058431  

P1058447 P1058450 P1058455P1058454  P1058457

Sunday, January 4, 2009